2022.01.18 13:08 Accomplished-Base899 Great News for the NFT Space! Come and Join us Rhinos
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2022.01.18 13:08 JuliaBreezyOfficial Any empaths that can send me good vibes or keep me on their prayers right now would mean the world to me...😭🕉️🌎🙏🏽
My birthday is in a few days & I haven't been able to celebrate my birthday, gotten a gift, been able to celebrate the holidays, get any holiday gifts or be with family for the last 3 years now so it would mean the world to me if someone could send me a gift for my birthday or just spend time with me or something, I just would love someone to talk to on my birthday & not be alone this year again..hoping there's a kind stranger out there...going through the holidays again alone with no family was horrible & just don't want to be alone again for my birthday 😭 🙏🏽 🌎 .. I have CashApp $juliahonaker, Venmo: @Julia-Honaker, Zelle if you want to message & ask for my number! And yes this is a true story. My parents cause of death & obituaries are public record so I am prepared for people to say mean things, people just want to make others feel worse than they do so I understand if anyone says anything rude, I forgive you & hope you find happiness one day ✌🏼
I'm adopted to start off with so Ive always pretended I didn't have issues with it when really I always never felt good enough but I thought if I didn't recognize those feelings, they weren't there. It was a closed adoption, now that I'm 18 I can go find them but the last I heard they were young & weren't prepared for a kid & with everything that has happened recently in my life I think finding them a little later in life when my life has calmed down a little would be better. So I got adopted into an amazing family who hands down are literally the most amazing, kind, selfless people to ever walk this earth. But one small problem to our adorable little family. My parents were very sick. Even my grandparents & the adoption agency told them they probably shouldn't adopt but they still thought adopting would save me from a worse life, probably in foster care & they had all the love in the world to give me, so why not?? Right? Well, this is what actually happened.. my parents were already in their late thirites when they adopted me, my Mom couldn't convince b/c she had one of the worst cases of Crones in the county & in a few years would develop severe heart disease & a bunch of other health issues. My Dad on the other hand was diagnosed with kidney failure which is when he had his first unsuccessful kidney transplant which later ment my Dad working long hours then being at dialysis all night so I barely saw him. I was always a Daddy's girl so this naturally broke my heart. My Mom almost died from open heart surgery twice when I was just a kid. My Mom worked long hours & most of the time I had no one to pick me up from school so I was always the kid that had no one to pick me up from after care after school because my Mom was still working. She would come home & immediately fall asleep because she was severely anemic & couldn't absorb nutrients so she only weighed around 90lbs at all times. So hard to look at now that I'm older and understand what sickness looks like. I ended up mostly having to raise myself, I was an only child as well so I didn't even have anyone else to tell me this wasn't normal. I never was able to ride a bike with my parents b/c my Mom's pace maker & she always had to watch her heart rate & my Dad was always drained from dialysis. Never got to go swimming as a kid b/c my parents couldn't get wet. My parents were always drained & I was an only child so I never went anywhere or did anything fun. If my parents weren't working or in the hospital I was at home making them lunch while they were in bed resting. Never the less my parents were my best fucking friends. We never fought, they always accepted me, I was the reason they kept fighting through all their health issues & the reason they woke up every morning to go to work so they could provide a roof over my head. I'm crying right now writing this thinking how selfless my parents were, I wish I told them more how grateful I was but as a kid I thought this was normal. I was adopted into a really Jewish family & my parents pretty much knew if they adopted me, they would be essentially shunned from my family since my "blood wasn't technically Jewish" so I never had a family outside my Grandparents. My Grandparents we're some of the most amazing people as well too, like I seriously got so lucky especially being adopted you never know what situation your gonna get adopted into. So in 2012 I woke up one day & my Mom was at work & I don't have siblings so I'm home alone & me n Dad were supposed to go golfing. I couldn't find him anywhere but his car was still in the garage, so I called my Mom & she told me to check the house again, that's when I walked to the other side of the bed & found basically my Dad's body facedown on the ground, with blood & brain matter all over the walls & ground & bed. What I didn't know but found out later is his head basically exploded from a really bad aneurysm relating to not getting checked b/c ppl with kidney disease are more susceptible to aneurysm, so even tho I always think what if I woke up sooner or didn't sleep in till 9 I could have been there for him or done something but in reality it would have been more traumatic for me to witness all of that happen when I was still a kid, so I've come to terms with that as best as I can. Then a few months later my Grandpa died. That one I was just numb for so I handled that the best I could, Grandparents you at least know it's coming at some point but with my Dad it's something a child should never have to prepare for. Moving on to a few years ago. My Mom was literally my BEST FRIEND, we got really really close & I became her caretaker when she retired after my Dad & Grandpa passed. She really needed to be in a home with a full time caretaker b/c at that point she had a bad fall & was in a walker with a broken hip they tried to do surgery on but from her OI & the fact she was too weak to go under they couldn't fix her hip so she basically just had to live like that until she passed which was HEARTBREAKING to have to witness on a daily basis, she would fall trying to get to the bathroom in a hurry from her crones but always tried to act independent & would get really mad if anyone tried to help her because I'm still a kid so she knows I shouldn't have to witness this or worry but she's my only parent, how could I feel okay going out and living my life not worrying about her!!! So I never wanted to leave or go out with my friends when all my other friends were experiencing things every kid should experience b/c I couldn't let her be alone, I came home to her on the floor one time, she fell and was like that for hours, still too caught up in her own pride to call me b/c she didn't want to bother me & wanted me to enjoy going out for once. That literally broke my heart 😭 that's my bestfriend right there before she's my mother so it hurt twice as much watching her go through all this. So come to a few years ago & she ended up suddenly becoming unconscious one day so I called the paramedics & I was still a kid so I don't understand everything that happened but she essentially was about to die from heart failure & her doctor literally said to me she's fought all these years b/c of me, she honestly should have passed a long time ago, so when he put it like that I understood that she had fought this fight long enough & she deserves to be out of pain after being in pain literally her whole life. She was on hospice for a week before she passed & I wouldn't leave her side, her own family only came in one day for 30 minutes & left. I was only 17 with no other family or siblings. You would think an adult or even tho my family was kinda estranged, someone would take me under their wing or something. I even had to wait an extra 3 hours, with my Mom's dead body at 3 am after she died b/c my "family' was "grieving too much" to be there so I had to wait for the Coroner to come collect my Mom's dead body which I had to sign for. Fucking bullshit. So then I get home around 5, finally tried to lay down after literally being awake at my Mom's bedside all week, then around 8 I get woken up by a text from my estranged aunt that says " Just so you know Grandma passed away this morning, we just got the call from the nursing home " and then they blocked me since the only family that they talked to was now dead ( My Mom & Grandma ) so I had to see them at the funerals a few days later & they refused to even talk to me. Fucked up. All because I'm adopted, was going to college for music & turned out bisexual. Towards the end that's why my Mom wasnt talking to her siblings or family anymore b/c they never accepted me from when I was adopted but then when they found out I was going to school for music not becoming a doctor or lawyer like the rest of my family & when they got the wind I was bisexual they said some really mean things & my Mom that's when my Mom put down her foot. But here I am still a child, with the only family I had in my life both pass away essentially on the same day, well not technically the same day since my Mom passed right before midnight but they died literally within 6 hours of each other, which am I the only one that find this creepy or ironic?!?! My Mom & Grandma were super close so I understand. My Mom was my Grandma's favorite & I was both their favorite 😉 just something that made me always chuckle especially since we always looked alike although I was adopted, my Grandparents we're the only ones that saw me as not being adopted which always touched my heart 💓 anyway, I was working a side job so I had a little money stuffed away, only a few hundred dollars because we all trust that our parents know what's best for us & always have everything figured out. But that's when fucking reality hit.... My Dad made his part of the Will but my Mom was still in the process of finishing the Will. So come to find out I at 17, had nothing to my name. Nothing. I'm still fighting for what my parents worked so hard for in court because the will wasn't finished. My Mom's siblings were supposed to take care of me if something ever happened, which is did, but they gave up their rights literally the minute they found out my Mom died. Which this wasn't sorted out before is beyond me especially when my Mom's siblings were lawyers. But because of their own ego they wouldn't talk to my Mom so when my Mom & Grandma both passed suddenly, nothing was sorted out or put in place. So right now I'm currently just fighting to prove who I am. When my Mom passed I went through everything in the house but I couldn't find my birth certificate, social security card, or anything like that & the only ID I had was expired. Then COVID hit & everywhere closed so trying to go to the courthouse to try to get documents or the DMV or Social Security was all closed in person & I didn't have any of the documents I needed over the phone. So right now that things are slowly reopening & now closing again, I'm still just trying to prove who I say I am. At 17 I was in a homeless shelter a few months after my family passed b/c I literally had nothing in place & I realized my Mom got too sick months ago & since she didn't see her estranged family no one knew she was seriously dying. I also just never even thought about any of this being a kid. Like as a kid who the fuck thinks they'll ever be in this situation or have to plan for this? 😢 So thank God one of my friends Mom's took me under her wing, who's known me & my family since I was a kid but just never knew what I was going through & dealing with so now she let's me stay at her place to help me have a roof over my head when she can while we all try to ride out COVID again. But she's a single parent who lives in a one bedroom apartment with herself, 2 daughters & me occasionally when she can since things are so tight right now. Especially since it's Winter where I live we just had our first bad snow storm a few months ago so I'm BEYOND grateful to have her & her daughters ( my friends ) in my life right now helping me to get things sorted out with lawyers & the will & getting all my documents to prove who I am & such. Seriously without them I would be homeless not able to get a job right now because I can't even get an ID let alone a social security card. Some of my estranged family has some documents I really need them to hand over because they know I have no way of proving who I am without them so at this point law enforcement said we'll have to bring them to court to get that documentation or go through the system but doing through the system to prove who I am can take YEARS. It just hurts because I feel like I'm an illegal immigrant in my own country 😭 going through everything I've been through these last few years has opened my eyes & helped me empathize with people I never thought I would have anything in common with, but you never know what life will throw at you. If anyone takes the time to read this & stupid as it sounds or even if you think things will never happen to you like I did, PLAN AHEAD, make sure your kids are taken care of even if your a young parent or think none of this will ever happen to you. Also no matter how hard things are, take a moment to appreciate who you have in your lives wether their blood or not. Also BE THANKFUL FOR YOUR FAMILY & PARENTS NO MATTER THE B.S OR HOW ANNOYING THEY GET. I see so many kids my age treat their parents like shit & it makes me angry 😡 So all in all, this is like the 3rd birthday & Hanukkah/ Christmas ive had to go through without any family or gifts or a home cooked meal 😔 last birthday & Christmas I was in a homeless shelter so to even have a warm apartment right now to be in no matter how cramped we are right now & no matter that we can't even afford to make a cake or anything for my birthday, I'm just grateful for just having a pillow to lay my head down on tonight. If anyone can help make my birthday / late holidays à little better, I'd love to meet some new people to talk to & make some new friends off this post 😊 if any kind people can donate, I know times are insanely hard right now so I don't expect anything at all, but it someone could donate it would seriously be the best gift I've gotten in YEARS 🙏🏽 this post has been the first time I've opened up about my situation online to anyone so please keep the comments kind & I don't judge you & forgive you already for any insensitive or ignorant comments. I've been crying the whole time I've been writing this post so I apologize for any misspelled words or anything that doesn't make sense 😭 I'll do my best to answer any questions or I can send any proof you need, I'm an open book! 📚
tldr; I'm adopted, my family passed away when I was young & haven't been able to celebrate my birthday or holidays with anyone & been in homeless shelters the last few years, If anyone can donate or just be a kind person so I have someone to talk to so I don't feel as alone that would mean the fucking world to me 🌎💞🙏🏽
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2022.01.18 13:08 Legitimate-Pick1017 Does getting an interview mean you passed the "first round"?
2022.01.18 13:08 lonelyassboii perhaps
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2022.01.18 13:08 LIAMgamerguy88 The green dragon inn on my survival minecraft world
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2022.01.18 13:08 ObscureNerd Pavlov Shack in 2022 is Still Awesome | Gameplay
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2022.01.18 13:08 BosnianPickleman I found a way to solo any boss (perfect for primadon)
2022.01.18 13:08 alexanderwales This Used to be About Dungeons, ch 69, Undone II
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2022.01.18 13:08 sporkyuncle Finished SMTV. Still don't really understand the setting/what happened 18 years ago.
I know none of this is supposed to matter, but these are things I want to know. They're setting details that I feel for example SMTIV explained sufficiently. And they are things that are good to understand for the sake of actually caring about the final decisions you make.
Maybe I have the actual timeline/details wrong, so here's what I was led to believe:
18 years ago, armageddon happened. God and Lucifer went to war. The epicenter of their battle was Tokyo, and Tokyo was destroyed. God said "oh no this is so sad, Alexa
play Despacito restore Tokyo from backup" and created a new dimension with a restored Tokyo where armageddon never happened. (Literally, in a computing context, on the server of all existence he created a new virtual machine and restored Tokyo from a recent backup, one where the people were blissfully unaware of demons and monsters and the apocalypse.) Then God died. So there are two worlds: regular earth which is destroyed, and alternate dimension Tokyo which exists in its own little bubble. Since God's death, his alternate Tokyo slowly starts to leak and fall apart, letting demons in and eventually dissipating entirely.
So these are my questions.
2022.01.18 13:08 Tacocatprime1 Cat moment
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2022.01.18 13:08 duckietheweirdo Found this in a server that also supports endogenic systems (systems that claim to be formed without trauma)
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2022.01.18 13:08 KingEzekielsTiger Shit relationship with mum because of her and step dads behaviour.
This is down to how my mum & step dad acted throughout my childhood and teenage years with me and my brother?!
So I’ll give you a bit of background and context. I (32M) and my brother’s (29M) mum and dad had a messy break up/ divorce which all started when I was 3 and my brother was 6 months.
I began asking questions about what happened with my parent when I was 5ish. My mum didn’t try and comfort me in any way and just gave me harsh details - which on reflection is the first red flag (dad cheated with another woman to whom he’s now married and have two kids together). At that age when I’m wondering why I only see my dad every second weekend why did she tell me that kinda shit?!
8 years later mum meets my step dad - He is cool and is nice to me and my brother, and then he moves in with us… (you see where this is going don’t you?!) Prior to this me and mum were mega close.
So after a few months his true side comes out. I remember early on were bitching and moaning when we got a snack or a drink in the house without asking him or my mum (wtf?!). Another one was any time someone called me on my mobile phone he would come into my room and talk over the talk of me asking who it was and not leave until I answered.
But then it escalated.
Any time me or my brother did something he didn’t like we were “fucking idiots”, “fucking dickheads” etc etc.
He would constantly name call, goad us, agitate us and then when we blew up his go to was your grounded. All the while my mum would sit and say fuck all so as not to cause an argument with him and I’d have to take the grounding.
A regular outburst to put us down would be “You’re a fucking nothing, you’ll never amount to anything”. That came back to bite him as I have an excellent and well paid career.
He would also always make comments about my dad saying he was a “wanker” and “not a real man” and that kinda stuff. I flipped one time out of anger and upset and my step sister was the one who stood up for me; not even my mum.
If I was out with friends and the bus was late he would ground me staying “it was my responsibility” - as if I have control over the fucking local bus company. They would never drive us anywhere or pick us up from anywhere.
It also escalated to him jabbing us in the arm when he did this kinda shit. Yet my mum still said and done fuck all to stop it or challenge it. But sat there and watched and listened to her two sons being bullied, goaded and worse. I remember one time he held my brother down when he was about 10 on the couch and sat over his face to which my brother let out a scream filled with fear and terror. I was the only one to challenge him at 13 y.o.
since I moved out I’ve never wanted to spend time with them. Now I have my son they also make little effort with him. My step dad never gets in touch to ask how he is or if he can see him - which suits me to be honest. My mum hardly ever does either.
Is there anything I should do or say or just continue making little to no effort with them.
Thanks for reading if you got this far.
P.S. I have a really good relationship with my dad now and have done for years and years.
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2022.01.18 13:08 LameName90210 The sporting parents who hijack their children's lives
January 19, 2022 at 05:00AM
By: JOE BENNETT , Stuff.co.nz
OPINION: They hijack their children’s lives and try to live them for them. It is particularly common with sport.
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What do you think?
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2022.01.18 13:08 chronoslayerss How much does it cost to max a super rare?
2022.01.18 13:08 lochjessmonster He proposed with a placeholder ring on Christmas Eve, and then we chose this one together! (Bonus cat picture!)
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2022.01.18 13:08 Mrstonmks I am doing a run similar to ,,Rimworld Generations" by Mr Samuel Streamer and I am having a debate on de-aging
My problem is that de-aging doesn't really have vibes of multiple generations. Yes, it has vibes of being so advanced that we live forever, but that's not what I am really looking for. I was thinking if I should pick like 2 or 3 best colonists who would be granted de-aging, and everyone other would have to suffer limited lifetime. What are your opinions?
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2022.01.18 13:08 _Jet_Alone_ I found my paint scheme for reapers.
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2022.01.18 13:08 Silphias huge sugar intake today
I'm two full weeks doing keto and just had a massive cheatday (fries, burger, candy, crisps) because sadly, i couldnt mentally deal with the cravings anymore.
I have done keto years ago where i lost around 20kg, and last summer again for only month, didnt continue because work and college problems. But when I did i never had many cravings, if any at all.
I dont know why I find it so difficult this time. I'm in the best physique ive ever been (i am 160cm male (5'3) and was 69kg 1st january. My goal is to be 60kg. I'm at 66 right now.)
I eat no more than 20g carbs a day but Ive been craving about anything that isn't keto, and the days/month are passing really slow because of it.
I know that a cheat day does help with diets in general, but ive read thats not the case for keto and that two weeks are a little too short for a cheat day.
I dont mind myself that I had a huge cheat day, I really feel like I did the right thing because i feel satisfied and no longer have this contant specific foods in my mind that i have been thinking about all day and i do feel reloaded.
I was just wondering if i will feel any physical disadvantages tomorrow or the next couples of days
I will obviously need to get back in ketosis, but will the ketoflu just be as significant as if i wouldnt have been doing keto the past two weeks?
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2022.01.18 13:08 Otherwise_Basis_6328 Tobacco - Stridex Dealer
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2022.01.18 13:08 gardnesd Buy PSLV in the green if you want a real squeeze.
2022.01.18 13:08 MCAV2004 Importing a collection from PriceCharting
2022.01.18 13:08 renegade12345 Jack Elliott signs contract extension through 2024, club option for 2025
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2022.01.18 13:08 GhenghisK Feelings on Stafford?
Personally, I'm all for him winning.. Being stuck in mediocrity in Detroit all those years, I'm actually glad he's with a decent team that spends $$.
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2022.01.18 13:08 -IAskManyQuestions Rizek humilhou o Pato depois do story apagado.
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2022.01.18 13:08 mikesaninjakillr Moonshot (2019)
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